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[29 May 2006|11:28pm] |
I feel really bad about this big thing that happened a long time ago, and I haven't been able to talk about it with a lot of people, and I am only writing this to make myself feel better. I'll just say sorry and promise an enormously long and (probably) unnecessarily dense and thorough senior letter. I don't like being vague, so I apologize about that also, and...goddamnit; if I don't stop now I'll keep going so nevermind.
Later.
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[12 Mar 2006|05:58pm] |
Hello. On Saturday, that is March the eighteenth, a HUGE fire will be visiting my backyard for the night and has ordered me to invite all who would be willing to come and to ask them to bring/tell their friends about it. If you need directions to come to my house, you may call my cell phone at any time of the day/night at: 404-641-8071. H-h-hu-hu-hug-hug-HUGE FIRE!
Feel free to stop by at any time of the night because it will be an all night thing, like sex can be at times.
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[11 Dec 2005|06:15pm] |
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oh my gawd, usually.
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| Hello, hello. |
[29 Jun 2005|02:50pm] |
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Hello to all. Summer has been, on a scale from 1-17, about a 14 and a half.
I'll make you an exquisite paper airplane that I call a "glider" and just happens to be my favorite of all paper airplanes (and believe me, I have had quite the experience with the "paper airplane"). It also flies incredibly and I would love to throw it off of a staggeringly tall building.
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[01 Mar 2005|09:46pm] |
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I'd say I do a decent job of polishing my pride
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| oceans and driftwood |
[20 Feb 2005|01:19am] |
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i am no longer a figment of your imagination
i am partly an engineer of sorts and a victim of law
loss is common
and love...well, love is rare and captivating and obsessive and (now three times)rare
whew, what a workout (no relation to thursday night)
what a huge mess
nevermind
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[22 Dec 2004|02:49pm] |
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im gettin a little pissed off about all this vague shit.
why dont you just fucking say the shit that is on your mind because that makes sense,
goddammit
god fucking dammit
im disabling the comments on this post because if you want to tell me something, you can fucking TELL it to me instead of writing it.
im not really worried about anyone coming up to me to express their anger at this post for two reasons:
im not popular and like two people read my shit anyway
and the people im talking about are either too pussy to talk to me or dont realize that im talking about them
im just a whiny little bitch and i need attention by complaining and hopefully i can piss someone off.
im complaining because im left out all the time.
i hate myself more than i hate anyone really.
the truth is im probably just jealous.
i dont know
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[27 Nov 2004|03:35pm] |
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im ok with an overdone father scrutinizing my motives.
and a red blinking light forming a halo over her head as she sleeps.
i can stand all the chunks of foundation strewn across my yard.
there will never be the same binding force between you and i.
im racing in and out of recognition.
im biting tendons and swallowing families whole.
i promise as long as i live to never show mercy again.
and dont worry about me forgetting.
i have an album.
its full of stamina.
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[04 Nov 2004|09:07am] |
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ive been wearing my clothes in dismay.
ive been cutting through bark and razor wire with a hack saw.
ive been writing directions to my new house.
ive been learning a great deal about myself.
ive been giving away bits and pieces of myself here and there.
i wish i knew what the hell i was talking about.
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| laets make something out of nothing |
[26 Oct 2004|06:03pm] |
ive been flying through the clouds every night for the past two weeks. i found out why we talk about assumptions all the time and i will say that youve been growing on me. i lost all recognition of you and your majestic ways but i know you dont like me when im willing to nurse anyone back to health.
she walked me to the house of orderves and i placed an order. ive been lieing about last night because i figured it was the right thing to do. its been dawning on me for the last two weeks that i am all alone here. i have plenty of proof that i was not there when it happened.
i am incredibly sorry about the last two weeks.
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| its such an unheard of extremity |
[10 Oct 2004|10:28am] |
Fatalics
i know magnificence like i know narcotics. peace of lightheadedness and a tiny tiny flame burning only seconds away combined with my ability to frame your meaningless pictures focusing ever so slightly on ALL details detains very few results on account of the lighting in this nostalgia room and one or two letters i found next to my lighter and my ciggarettes plus the thought of losing what i found without ever over analyzing. i know icarus like i know absurdity. i have been forced out of my house and im not sure why but im starting to wonder why she climbed overboard just as i welcomed talent and fatalics onto our sinking ship of a never ending metaphor and no one ever hoped to die, it just kind of forced its way out of my mouth and onto a new and already resolved mystery. we had better watch the ground we stand on, the orchestra we are a part of, the opportunities we never accepted responsibility for, and the abominations we have all grown so incredibly comfortable with. speaking of fatal diseases...
fuck pretty much everybody who is alive. there is such a small # of people i actually care for.
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[28 Sep 2004|01:49pm] |
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there are a lot of things i need to take care of
only one really counts
tonight
ive been writing to much
bible study was really fun last night
i love our conversations
i spent the night at kenneths and got no sleep and i loved it
i live for...
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[21 Sep 2004|05:40pm] |
just in case anyone wants this,
phone # 770 972 8695 but you are probably more likely to reach me at kenneths cell phone 678 754 0578
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| school sucks |
[30 Aug 2004|09:40pm] |
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this week is gonna suck
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[24 Aug 2004|09:09pm] |
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starting off, i cant go to church tommorow because i have to go to the eye doctor. im actually kind of excited, because i cant really see much of anything. i wonder what kind of frames ill get. im open to suggestions. now all i gotta do is get a hearing aid.
i just finished watching trading spouses. thats actually not a bad show.
i wish i could have gone to the show tonight. that would have been cool.
other than that, that's about it i guess.
see everyone at school
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[19 Aug 2004|06:45pm] |
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yesterday, thomas farthing drove me and kenneth over to his house and we hung out with him for an hour or so. hes got this bench swing thing tied to a tree. when you sit on it it kind of bounces. SO,,,,,i sat on it and kenneth spun it up and swung me around on it really really really fast. he did it like 4 times in a row and i got really sick and had to lay down for a second. i really like thomas. hes an awesome person.
i am really wanting a girlfriend. i so badly want someone that i can love and hold and tell my most inner thoughts. im so jealous of anyone who has a partner, girl or guy. ive got someone on my mind i want to really get to know, but i think she has a boyfriend and i freeze up everytime i get near her. god i hate myself for that. the only thing i want in the entire world and i suck at getting it. i should be more grateful though. i have some of the best friends ever put on the face of this earth. i love everyone and i hope everyone loves me.
see you guys tommorow
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| 170 days left of school |
[19 Aug 2004|05:45pm] |
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well im just gonna talk
i finished my poem ive been working on and im really excited about that.
VERY excited about the remnant show on friday.
cant wait to sit in the pit with everybody after 2nd. ill probably get a stamp.
i love seeing everybody everyday. just know that all of you (and you know who you are) make my day.
well me kenneth craig and jake will hopefully be able to practice at daniels on saturday. if for some reason jake ends up not being the drummer of choice, we are going to try thomas farthing. i actually would kind of prefer thomas but im gonna practice with jake once.
im so excited about going to school tommorow.
bye
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[12 Aug 2004|02:28pm] |
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well i didnt go to ponkos. i was looking forward to it but its not a big deal. dont worry sean. if you feel bad ill feel bad.
some kid threw up all over himself. he stood up and brushed some chunks off and i came way to close to throwing up. i heaved like three times but nothing came out thank god.
wow. that was pointless
bye
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[08 Aug 2004|06:05pm] |
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i forgot to say that i dont know if there is youth tonight so im just not going
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| the lock in F-ed me |
[08 Aug 2004|06:00pm] |
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well i stayed up all night at the lock in so when i got home (10ish) i went to sleep. i woke up around 8 and then i didnt fall asleep till like 3am. so the next morning my mom wakes me up to go to church and i was really tired so i said "lets skip service and only go to sunday school" and she said ok. so she woke me up like an hour later and i said "lets skip sunday school" so i stayed home and slept till about 2pm. now im not going to be able to sleep tonight and ill be tired tommorow.
SWEET. man im excited.
bye
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